Dear Diary. .

Blog, don’t die.

September 25, 2009 · 11 Comments

After several warnings, I have finally decided to revive my almost dead blog.

Getting down to things, I just realised it’s that time of the year when toys are IN.

Golu.

How I miss the days of poking fun at the maliigai poo clad aunties, croaky singers forced to pay tribute by singing in front of a sundal-relishing kootum during navrathri, pattu pavadais in bright Indian colours with broad zaaris, the much anticipated quarterly vacations when I yearned to sleep all I wanted, cousins visitng from all over the country. Suddenly, it is action time. Carnatic music floods the streets in Mylapore before the Kapaleeshwar kovil in Mylapore (not that it doesn’t happen any other time of the year, considering that it is the most happening art centre in Chennai, still.) All this makes me look back and gently acknowledge the fact that I have grown past all those days of vettiness, all those days when I needn’t give a damn for anything are begone. It is this very thought that scares me.

Change is the only thing that is constant. How I agree with this now!

My friends have changed. My best friends have changed. My perception of life has undergone a tumultous change. I have changed as a person.

I’d like to believe I learnt things the hard way. Belief.

I’ve not kept in touch with too many people. I’ve not bothered to be the social butterfly, that I was, here in law school. Coldness has kept me warm here. Ignorance, in bliss. I’ve this feeling of guilt deep inside me which tells me that I should get back to what I was and give everything my best shot instead of the half-hearted effort I put into things here. This post is an apology. An apology to all those people I have been extremely rude to, in the period of three years. Not staying in touch. Being a snob, as Swathi would quote me.

For starters, I’ve just been busy trying to keep myself busy. Nothing else has changed with me, in life. I still believe there is something nice and good about every person I meet, I still think we tend to draw conclusions about people based on their friends or based on whether the majority of your friends like that person, which is totally uncool, I still believe we can set things right. I believe there is still a lot left to be done by me.

Belief.

I know this post has been very random.

But then again, all my posts are. :)

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11 responses so far ↓

  • swathi // September 25, 2009 at 6:38 am | Reply

    aishu,
    are we really growning or shrinking from within???
    its confusing at times in life when we some things seem more important than others,nd its totally understandable;)anyways best of luck or a fresh start.btw t”snob “thing was a from a book called”how to end a 3-year long hibernation??”

  • Preeti // September 25, 2009 at 6:51 pm | Reply

    ash…..

    more or less ithe thaan naan en blog’la ezhutharatha irunthen … how things have changed illa ?

    me missin the good old days…..

  • Swathi iyer // September 26, 2009 at 10:59 am | Reply

    i’d been to the golu thingy jus now!! *sigh*
    i was like the moving-loud-fat outcast!:P
    things will change, but my friend should never ever change!!!! love ye!:)
    P.S.: the mallu guys were hot though!:P

  • mrniceguy467 // September 26, 2009 at 11:33 am | Reply

    This is the first time I came across your blog. Happy to see that you talked about golu and pattu pavadai’s. Very rare to see those now a days any way.

    Welcome back! Give more of your random posts.

  • Iswarya's After Divorce Husband // September 26, 2009 at 1:44 pm | Reply

    I agree with everything you have written. Similar things have happened to me too. I am constant but yet I have changed. I have stopped trusting people as easily as I used to before. People now have to pass through staged like “someone I know”, “acquaintance” and then “may be a friend”. There were people I believed were in my life were going to be there forever, but they’ve long gone and I have others now and this time I know they are not going to be there forever. Here, now. That’s it. Tomorrow we may part our ways. I don’t know. I don’t want to know. I don’t make promises anymore, not to others, not even to myself. I could go on, but this your blog and I am just to comment.

    • ashkrish // September 27, 2009 at 3:21 am | Reply

      Lol. You aren’t going to stop telling me that you will marry me after I ‘divorce’, are you? Harish and me are in no mood for divorce, my boy. :D

  • Iswarya's After Divorce Husband // September 28, 2009 at 8:30 am | Reply

    U need to marry first to get divorced woman! Dont they teach u family at ur National Law university?

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